Looking forward...

My life has changed so much this past year, I have lost a baby, and a close friend... One by choice and one because they were called to god far to early. The loss of a friend is by choice. I feel as if I knew that in time it would come to this, but I had no idea it would have been in this way. Her actions and words after my miscarriage are even to hurtful to type on here. I chose to stop talking to her until I felt I would be able to better handle the situation. Even once I decided I was OK to talk to her, we have yet to talk. Hurtful, yes.... I am the type of person to give the clothes of my back just to help someone, everyone Else's happiness is what makes me happy. She is not this way, and it hurts me a lot. I know what I have to do, I know who I need to surround myself with, and in time I will have to accept that she just does not care....

Sometimes reality sucks!